Breaking Down The Moments

Hrmm.... so it's been a while since I've sat down to write one of these posts? Why? a mix of many things. Going back to running my own business has given me a lot of freedoms recently. I don't have to get up until I feel Like it. I get cool shit like the tickets to the Seahawks game. (did you see how close I was?) I get to meet a lot of cool people, and I get to dust off my business attire. People have begun to take me seriously again, and I think all the corruptedness of giving in to anothers whims is out of my system.
Apparently, I got rather drunk the other night and while me and loc were in the car, spilled the beans about a lot of stuff about how I felt about everything that went on in my relationship, how things at one point were perfect. Had the perfect job (haha i made more than your dad does. Well most of you anyhow. I had a good car, and a good girlfriend. ) Oh how these things can suddenly turn to dust in the blink of an eye.
Those of you who know me, know that I'm not one to cry, and thankfully I was drunk beyond belief, so I don't remember, but loc says that I was ballin my eyes out for a good 30 minutes. Go figure huh? Well, maybe all that crying did me some good.
I admit that some days I get in little bouts of depression, but right now, I couldn't be happier. Nothing is an illusion right now, and I am sure of everything that is going on. I know where my work stands, I know who my real friends are and who aren't. You think I Don't know who you are... sometimes the users are actually being used...
Hrmm... what else?
I've been going to a lot of new places recently....

There is a Thai Place in Ballard that serves an interesting drink.... It has some root from africa in it and is a mild hallucinogen. You are only allowed to be served one of them... Wow! That is all I can say about that!!!!!!!

I've been going out to eat way too much and should probably be doing more cooking, but I haven't been caring.
PS don't order hella 555 pizza or they will cancel it. I've been ordering 555 consistantly like every other day so that there is a pile of pizza boxes in my room lol. I called today to get some but they said they no longer serve that at the dominos. Luckily the pizza hut on 143 doesn't know of my pizza addiction yet so I ventured to try them tonight and it was ok. Not as many slices but seems to be better quality... maybe its just because I have eaten a lot of dominos recently.

So I haven't been sleeping in my bed lately. Think of you too much. I've been taking my blankets and making a pallette on the floor. I don't know why, but It still manages to be comfortable.

Where are my words of wisdom at the moment? Maybe I have none right now... besides im thirsty... brb....

Ok I'm back. So I have noticed over the past month that a LOT of people come to my page on myspace and don't say anything... wierd huh? It's like people just want to know what I'm up to.... I hope that I entertain some of you...

Oh and Betty, in regards to Melody? Well lets just say, she is a love affair that I've had for a long time... It's nothing bad, and many people wouldn't understand... maybe I do the things that I do so that I can go back to her each time. Even though in the end I leave her to be forgotten until I need her again, and ultimately I never finish what I start with her. She Is good company though. I'm sure she will be around till I die. Sometimes I wish I could be rid of her, but hey.... It is what it is... and It is what we make of it.

Lastly, I read a remarkable story today called Griffine and Sabine And extraodrinary Correspondence.. It was amazing. A love story, A tryst, A superb yet disturbin amalgamation of lies and the truth, with such a haunting ending. i LOVED it.